Another Night of Drinking...

Well I drunk again after feeling so lonely 1 of my friends called and invited me over 4 some fun with alcohol and of course I couldn't say no to that so I went and drunk my worries and stresses away. I feel so happy when I'm drunk, is that a bad thing?

Lonely

I guess every1 goes thru it once n their life but im truly beginning to feel it really hard becuz I can't really talk to any1 about my problems face to face. The only people I can r at least 400 miles away and it jus isn't the same. Anywayz I thimk most of my close buds don't really like me anymore and thats kind've hard to fathom cuz I would do anything 4 any1 of the them. Hopefully I'm jus over exaggerating things but it so lonely right now. I jus came off a week of drinkin n I feel like shit.

I'm failing in school since I only go when I want 2. Fuck I'm such a fuck up, a failure. What happened to my dreams of becomin some1 in this world. It's a fuckin joke that I thought so highly of myself and all I am is a fuckin jackass with no true meaning 2 my life.

Thats it for now I jus want to grab a few beers and drive out 2 a quiet place and listen to the hustle and bustle of the city and try to figure myself out.

Beer Pong, The American College Game

Beer pong (also called Beirut, Ruit, Lob pong and other names) is a drinking game in which players throw a ping pong ball across a table with the intent of landing the ball in one of several cups of beer on the other end. The game typically consists of two two-player teams, one on each side of a table, and a number of cups set up on each side. There are no official rules, so rules may vary widely, though usually there are six, ten or 15 plastic cups arranged in a triangle on each side. The number of players on a team can vary as well, from one to three or more.

When a ball lands in a cup, the defending team must consume that cup's beer. The game is won by eliminating all the other team's cups before one's own cups are eliminated. The losing team must then consume all the beer remaining in the winning team's cups. The order of play varies – both players on one team shoot followed by both players on the other team, or players on opposite teams can alternate back and forth.

Today, beer pong is played at a multitude of North American colleges and universities and elsewhere. The game is also played by high school students, despite the fact that furnishing alcohol to persons under the age of 21 is illegal in the United States.

Although the preceding guidelines are common, the rules may be subject to a wide variety of modifications and additions that often vary based on the area of the country, the state, or even the house in which a particular game is played.

The Love for Keystone Begins

When I see that blue and silver can with the words "Keystone Light" written across it. I get the chills because it has done my life wonders. It is by far the most drank alcoholic beverage for college students because of its affordability and quantity. It is a great accommodation for "beer pong", the great American college game.

Well I have fallen in love with this beer, I get as many cases as I can now a days and it is costin me a fortune but who the fuck cares it makes me feel so awesome. So It begin on Mardi Gras I drank with some friends of my roommate than play beer pong at a secret location, can't say cuz it's not a place where we should be playin it. So i was drunk that night and everynight till Sunday, 5 days of drinkin...yea 2 some that is probably pussy status, only 5 days but come on I barely started enjoying the great wonders of Keystone.

Well every fuckin day I felt like shit until every night I felt like a million bucks. I have met so many people these past few days than I had my whole entire 1st semester and I also strengthened some friendships that I had 1st semester. Friday night and Saturday nights were the highlights of my week...ordering 300 tacos at del mar and gettin kicked out of a party as soon as we walked n were fuckin awesome times. Being drunk b4 9 on a Saturday and jus hangin out with my new buds was great. I can't wait for this weekend. Hopefully the fun starts 2morrow night, which I'm countin on.

Oh...and my grades r not doin so well. The first exam I took was 4 logic and I got a 3.7 out of 10 on it...yea i no im fuckin up and I have missed 3 straight Math classes and I should b studyin 4 my econ exam 2morrow but I jus don't want 2 make my brain work right now. I know college is a place that will make me successful, i jus don't no how 2 motivate myself. I'll try my best but I'm not going 2 give up fun for the sake of gettin good grades!!

A Goal I Can't Keep

So I told myself that I was going to do really good in school this semester after almost failing my first. I even gave my self a goal that I thought I would be able to keep, which was no alcohol during the weekdays since I have a class that starts at 10:30 in the morning Monday to Friday. At first I thought I would be able to do it because I didn't go out and drink 4 a full week but then the 1st weekend after classes started I went out and got drunk and it was awesome. Better than I remember, it took all my stresses and worries away for that short time and I was havin a great time meetin new people and playin drinkin games. I thought to myself now this is college. I stuck to my goal tho I didn't drink durin the week but I still decided to b a dumbass and not get up 2 go 2 class. Mardi Gras week destroyed my goal and fuckin screwed me up n school.

I failed at life but i still made it thru

Well as the 1st semester carried on, I got more lazy, and did not want to get up 2 go to class. So my math class that i had everyday at 7:40 in the morning was jus to much 4 me so i quit going and received a big F in it. My other 3 classes i came seriously close to failing because of attendance...there is a policy that says if u miss 7 days of classes then u automatically receive an F and in English and Comm101 i was at 6 days b4 i finally buckled down and got to all my classes except philosophy(he didnt take attendance) and math (failed it). So i received a 2.079...lowest GPA of my life. My roomate Dan bombed his first semester and gave up and went back home which was a real downer to start this semester with. Im tryin my best to do good n school this semes but im not livin up 2 my goal...which sucks!!! I dont want to b a FAILURE!!!

The Night I Wish I Could Take Back

Well r roomate Harry had moved out because i think he was leavin school, but yea i aint goin to give the details of wat happened this night. All i no is that I turned my back on the only guy i could ever really count on to have my back. Yea im talking about Dan...this dude is the only person in the world who knows my deepest darkest secret...not even my cuzin Linda knows it...i dont know why i told him mayb it was because i trust him more then anyone i no or i was jus blabbin, not sure. Anywayz i turned my back on him and i tried to justify it but it jus was one of the stupidest things ive ever done. This guy would stick up 4 me and when i had the chance to i failed...i only hope this isnt one of the reasons he left Boise...because of my stupidity. Anyways Dan is a very cool guy to chill with he is a laid back God lovin guy, and by knowing him it as made me become a better person. We would have some heated political debates because he is a conservative Republican and im a sort of in between moderate and liberal Democrat. Even tho i would get mad about his idealogies i knew he had valid points, which has made me rethink my views. He is very intelligent more than i think he realizes and sometimes made me feel really stupid. I would have fun jus chillin with him and i still would give everythin back 4 that night so i dont have to listen to people put him down to this day. I tell them to lay off him especially since hes not around to defend himself

All night playin video games

So wat would a dorm with 4 guys and no video games be...not a dorm. Me and my roomates Dan and Harry would stay up really late or all night playin video games on either the Xbox or Xbox 360 and man it would b a blast. Sometimes the "Madden Battles" as we called it, would get heated and Dan was jus a pro at it, and would beat us quite handily, so me and Harry would always gang up on him and talk shit which would really piss him off sometimes, but it was all fun and games after it was said and done. We would usually always go and get food in the middle of the night and one time we stayed up all night and went and got breakfast at McDonald's...i wonder who all went to class that day.

Weed is not my friend

Weed...hmmm wat can i say. It jus does not seem to make me as happy as it does for some of my roomates. The first time i ever really got high was probably the scariest night of my life. I freaked out so bad and jus remember thinkin that all my roomates had been murdered and all i wanted 2 do was jump out my window which is 7 stories high. Not to lie but i did smoke a few more bowls of weed after that, but im pretty sure im going to stay away from it now...i havent smoked it for a few months now.

First Time Drinking

I never drunk in high school. A fun night for me was goin to a football game then hangin out at a food joint with my friends. Drinkin and partying was something i never done, but havin a room full of partyers...it was bound 4 me 2 get drunk. The first night i ever got drunk was with Danny, and it felt amazing to be as buzzed as i was. All i wanted to do was make friends with everybody. It was AMAZING!

College Begins

I began college on a really sour note. My papa, who was like a dad to me died, a couple weeks b4 i started school, but the worst part about it was that it didn't seem to mean anything to me. It was as if i was numb and all i cared about was myself. I didn't even want to go to California for his funeral because I didn't want to be late to check-in to my dorm. I felt like a piece of shit for thinkin this way and i still do its so hard to realize that the man that taught me so much is no longer living...he will never see me graduate college and raise a family...but life goes on. So i made it in time 2 check in and meet my new roommates. The first guy I met was Trevor (Tee). I picked the bed on his side. The next guy i met was Harrison (Harry). He slept on the other side and the last guy I met was at night when I walked in to my dorm this dude Daniel (Dan) came up and introduced himself. He was a track star from Nevada and would be playin for the BSU track team. At first i was like he's a jock, i am not goin to be really good friends with this dude but lone and behold he became one of closest friends I've ever had. Well more about him later. So my first few weeks of college were good jus going to school and hangin out with my roommates. I went to class everyday and it seemed like it was going to b a breeze.

Here it goes...

Well bear with me, this is the first time I've ever wrote a blog like this. I decided to try it out because my old roommate had one, and as i sit here in my dorm thinking of ways to prolong going to the library and doin hours worth of homework, i thought "hey why not start a blog and tell people of my hectic and sometimes sad life".
First let me tell you a little about myself. I'm born and raised in San Jose, California until about the age of 15, my parents decided to move to Nampa, Idaho with my dad's company. I thought it would be an amazing adventure...move from the big city to the small town but it turned out to be probably the most depressing time of my life. I went from being a straight A student to receiving all F's...a lot of kids didn't like me and wanted to beat me up (I'm not sure why...I've always been a laid back guy that doesn't talk too much unless i really know u). Anyways I decided to ask my parents if i could go back to San Jose and live with my grandparents and cousins, and they reluctantly let me (I think they were scared that they could lose me 4ever if they had made me stayed). It was hard sayin bye to them and my younger brothers and sister. I would cry in my room alot during high school wonderin if they would ever 4give me 4 leavin them.
Well high school has passed me by (and it was a lot of fun...my best friend/cuzin Linda helped me thru a lot) and now I attend college at Boise State University...home of the Broncos....only 30 minutes from my parents house (and it feels more homey then anything).