A Goal I Can't Keep

So I told myself that I was going to do really good in school this semester after almost failing my first. I even gave my self a goal that I thought I would be able to keep, which was no alcohol during the weekdays since I have a class that starts at 10:30 in the morning Monday to Friday. At first I thought I would be able to do it because I didn't go out and drink 4 a full week but then the 1st weekend after classes started I went out and got drunk and it was awesome. Better than I remember, it took all my stresses and worries away for that short time and I was havin a great time meetin new people and playin drinkin games. I thought to myself now this is college. I stuck to my goal tho I didn't drink durin the week but I still decided to b a dumbass and not get up 2 go 2 class. Mardi Gras week destroyed my goal and fuckin screwed me up n school.

I failed at life but i still made it thru

Well as the 1st semester carried on, I got more lazy, and did not want to get up 2 go to class. So my math class that i had everyday at 7:40 in the morning was jus to much 4 me so i quit going and received a big F in it. My other 3 classes i came seriously close to failing because of attendance...there is a policy that says if u miss 7 days of classes then u automatically receive an F and in English and Comm101 i was at 6 days b4 i finally buckled down and got to all my classes except philosophy(he didnt take attendance) and math (failed it). So i received a 2.079...lowest GPA of my life. My roomate Dan bombed his first semester and gave up and went back home which was a real downer to start this semester with. Im tryin my best to do good n school this semes but im not livin up 2 my goal...which sucks!!! I dont want to b a FAILURE!!!